A wish that came true

During the MKMMA course, we had to write something called a DMP, or Definite Major Purpose: basically answering the question WHAT DO YOU WANT? Mine got sent back over and over because I wasn’t being very specific. But on the third draft (dated October 5, 2014) I wrote in there that I wanted to go to Hawaii in 2015.

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I had wanted to visit Hawaii for most of my life, because I kept hearing about how awesome it was. But I really considered it more seriously than a passing fancy when on a visit to California (where we were from) my best friend Celia told me her son Tyree (who was going to school there) would be graduating in 2015 and would I like to come too?

And I was like GREAT! AWESOME!

But I didn’t seriously feel like I was going. I didn’t keep my word a lot those days.

There are a few things you might want to know:

We drove to California from Oklahoma back in 2013 because I was so paranoid of the TSA. I had publicly and actively boycotted flying, speaking out against what was going on, and I didn’t even know if I was on some list or something. I am an abuse survivor, and the thought of some stranger touching me was like a phobia. At one point I couldn’t even read stories of TSA abuses because they would make me feel physically ill. The whole part about private jets and cruises (although those would be awesome) was my way to figure out how I could possibly go without having to deal with the TSA.

Even if I could have made myself go through a TSA line back then, I had no idea how I was going to pay to go to Hawaii. My husband doesn’t like traveling and while he might have paid for me to go, I didn’t know if it would be possible for us. At that time, my own finances weren’t doing too badly but I was later to take a series of financial missteps which put me into serious debt for the first time ever.

And although I had known Tyree since he was in second grade (his younger brother and my sons went to kindergarten together and they lived right around the corner) I didn’t actually know him all that well. So at the time the only thing sending me there was the prospect of hanging out with my friends for a week (which was pretty cool).

But doing the MKMMA forced me to decide WHAT DO I WANT, and I wanted to go to Hawaii. As it turned out, I got a TON more things done in that trip, which I’ll talk about more later. But going to Hawaii was not only something I had wanted to do for a long time, it was the first thing that they were actually able to drag out of me as a specific thing I WANTED TO DO, as opposed to what others might want, stuff for my husband/kids/etc.

Isn’t it weird how women are? LOL

So that gives some context into this photo:

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How did I get there? How did I not only go, but have a great time, absolutely zero trouble with airport security, and meet some dear friends along the way?

Well, it’s sort of like Sam’s dilemma. How do you explain nine months of effort, involving danger, fear, and victories? It would be easier for you to look at the information in the tabs above, then take the course and retrain your own subby (plus more fair to those who created it and those who took it) than for me to explain the whole thing. You  also could read what I’ve written so far. But it’s really a change inside which all this guidance, training, and mental effort produced that did it for me, and that’s something which WILL happen if you do the work.

I admit I slacked off some there at the end, but even so it’s been enough to get me through. I have a lot more specific things that I have discovered along the way that I want to do, and I am really excited because I know now that I can do them!

But really it began with the Mental Diet for me. That’s why I keep going on about it. You can save yourself some time and do it now while you’re waiting, instead of waiting until whenever they introduce it after the course starts (which won’t be for a while). But it’s up to you. 🙂

Just fill out the form and follow the directions. I don’t have time to spam people, so it’s all cool.