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Watching the webinar replay …

I’m so glad I am watching this … a lot of my biggest worries (I have literally no money to do the “pay it forward” thing — I’m not just saying this, I am serious — and I think my husband was worrying about this too – like “how much is this going to cost me now?”) was put to rest … this is one reason why I have refused to use any of his money for my businesses anymore. He has supported me so much through all this, and I don’t want to cause him any more anxiety.

I got into business to give us a plan B so he would never have to have any worry about his retirement — and used most of my 401k money trying to make this work on so many fronts (not just any one thing — like Edison, I feel as if I’ve tried a zillion things which haven’t worked) and feeling stymied at many turns.

Which is why I’ve come to the conclusion that the issue is me, a motivation for doing this program in the first place.


Typical for me, I haven’t even started this yet and I’m worrying about it.

Like what if I fail at this? I have a rather serious condition which causes memory issues. What if I forget to do the work and I get kicked out, after everything? That would be the perfect way for me to sabotage myself yet again.

My husband’s concerns are more along the lines of wondering if this is some sort of elaborate scam. (I have been scammed before by programs which promised yet didn’t deliver, so it’s not a unworthy fear)

But one thing I appreciate about him is that he never says “you can’t do this”. 🙂

Just the fact that I’m trying something new makes me feel like it’s worth it. I’ve been stuck in woe-is-me land for a while now and stopping the insanity of doing the same thing over and over and getting no results is refreshing, and has got me doing a few other new things unrelated to this program, which is promising overall.