DMP

Week 19: overcoming fear

This week we got a few tips from Mark J on overcoming fear, which I found particularly relevant right now.

Haanel also talks about overcoming fear in the preface to Part 19. I never really understood why he did this, or what it had to do with the rest of Part 19. Until today, it seemed random.

Later, Haanel writes:

In seeking the truth we are seeking ultimate cause; we know that every human experience is an effect; then if we may ascertain the cause, and if we shall find that this cause is one which we can consciously control, the effect or the experience will be within our control also.

It occurred to me this morning that fear, rather than being a cause, is an effect.

Now, I’ve talked about causes and effects before, because that’s what this class really is about: determining the effects we want (our DMP and PPNs) then understanding the causes and how to produce them so we get those effects (or results).

So why am I finding all this fear-overcoming stuff so relevant? I mean, I’m a Certified Guide in the Master Key Experience! I have a big S on my chest and a cape and everything. 😉

(if you believe that, I also have a bridge to sell you … on sale, today only!)

But in my old blueprint, I’m a big fat fear-bucket, and the old blueprint must be where this is coming from. Because my future self, my true golden self, is afraid of nothing.

Now, when I watched the video this week where Mark went over the fear-curing tips, it also occurred to me that I have had those tips for a full year now. I have no excuse. And the question came up again this morning: So why have I not been using them?

Here are some ideas I came up with:

  • was fighting fear with those simple tips straying too far from my old blueprint?
  • was there something inside that wanted to keep life safe within those old boundaries? (even if that doesn’t serve me anymore?)

I felt as if I was getting somewhere. So I began to write out my fears:fear-1027574_640

  • it’s all too big; I can’t change
  • I will change and lose who I am. Which is silly, if you think about it: I’m trying to become my true self; by definition, this IS who I am – who I was meant to/made to be, who I used to be before people told me I wasn’t. This is why we love babies so much, by the way, because they are their true authentic selves.
  • I’ll get dragged back into an abusive situation if I don’t keep my guard up

There is a whole lot of backstory into that last one, involving every kind of abuse basically since I was born, 14 years in a high-maintenance fundamentalist so-called “Christian” cult, and so on. Because of that, even now, 10+ years out of that situation, I’m very very wary of anything labelled “spiritual”, any kind of hierarchy, anything using Scriptures, or any kind of situation where one person has control over a lot of others, where they’re applying pressure or influence to coerce others to do things in the name of “spiritual growth”.

But I haven’t trusted my subby’s power of discernment. I haven’t trusted my own growth or my ability to thrive without my old blueprint to compel me. I haven’t understood (or believed in) my own power. As Haanel states in the preface:

…the way to overcome fear is to become conscious of power.

What is this power?

You may know that thought constantly, eternally is taking form, is forever seeking expression, or you may not, but the fact remains that if your thought is powerful, constructive, and positive, this will be plainly evident in the state of your health, your business and your environment; if your thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will manifest in your body as fear, worry and nervousness, in your finance as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in our environment.

Our power, our birthright if you will, is to use our thoughts to change our environments. As far as we know, animals don’t do this (with the exception of creatures such as ants, bees, wasps, etc, who create their own homes out of nothing, and possibly the burrowing animals such as rabbits).

So what does that quote tell us? That our thoughts are the cause. Once we become conscious of the power to control our thoughts, and gain the ability to do so, we have the power of overcoming fear.

The 7 Day mental diet is as good a place as any to begin.

Week 15: failure and opportunity

Failure is not necessarily a bad thing. In it lie the seeds of opportunity, if you’re willing to look for it.

Let me explain. For the first time since starting this course in September 2014, I have failed to complete a weekly service.

(those of you taking the course know how ‘gasp’ worthy that is)

My weekly was to make a full-length Victorian dress for the event I’m going to next weekend. Not just one dress, but a reversible dress, with different colors and styles on each side. And my machine was broken, so I was going to do it by hand. While in the middle of a holiday week, while watching a marathon of Harry Potter movies with my daughter and her boyfriend coming over every day.

Okay, so I put myself in a situation where I was probably going to fail. This is straight out of my old blueprint, and looking back, it seems silly. At the time, it didn’t seem that way. But in the back of my head, I thought, “can I really do this?” so even then I knew.

Things were going pretty well, actually. The skirt was sewn, the bodice and sleeves were cut out, and fit great. But then a sleeve got put in inside out, and the neckline was wrong, and on and on and on. Finally, realizing I couldn’t do the buttonholes in time, I went to a local sewing shop on Sunday and bought me a new machine.

(They were technically closed, but they were renovating and when I said I needed a machine today and if they were closed did they know anyone who sold them, they said come on in. Good business, there.)

But the neck was giving me fits and it was 11:30 pm and I normally go to bed at 10 and I hadn’t gotten to the buttonholes yet and the skirt was still to be put on and that damn sleeve still wasn’t right and I had to admit I had failed.


Haanel tells a story about failure, right at the start of part 15, and when I read it, I found it inspirational.

Here’s how it goes: An experiment was done at the Rockefeller Institute by a Dr. Jacques Loch (MD/PhD) where potted roses infested with aphids (which have no wings) were put into a room near a closed window and allowed to dry out.

Now, these aphids were in trouble. They thought they had chosen a great place to live, but it had turned disastrous. They had no food, no water, and things looked pretty dim. They had failed spectacularly. What could they do? They were just bugs, crawling around on a dying rose bush. It seemed as if they were doomed.

So what did they do? Did they just lay down and die? No.

The only method by which they could save themselves from starvation was to grow temporary wings and fly, which they did.

(emphasis mine)

They took a failure and turned it into an amazing opportunity for freedom. They found resources and abilities within themselves they never had before.

When I first read this, I thought: if an aphid can do this, so can I. I am more than an aphid! So I began a little experiment of my own.

(no, I’m not trying to grow wings)

(according to Wikipedia, it’s actually their children who are born – very quickly, I’d presume – with wings)

(I’ll tell you about my experiment later. This post is getting too long as it is, and I have a lot more to say.)


So how does failure turn into opportunity? If you use it to learn something.

It didn’t hit me until yesterday that I had failed, and what that meant. I felt as if I let myself down, and I did cry a bit about that. But then I realized that I had been half-assing it for a while now. Reading Og once a day instead of three times. Not listening to my recording at all – it needs to be re-recorded and I’ve been putting it off. ‘Sort of’ finishing weekly tasks ‘well enough’. Not keeping my promises to my customers. No wonder subby figured I was going back to the old blueprint. I was.

Before I began this class, I had failed in every single area of my life. Every one.

(don’t even bother telling me ‘no, look at all the good stuff you did,’ because I have them on stacks of cards and almost every one is bittersweet, a record of great starts, even great accomplishments, ending in massive failure – and I guarantee you do not know the details)

So why in the world would I want to go back to that?

They say when you’re stressed, you seek out the familiar, and I guess that’s what I was doing.


A few months ago, someone who has known me since 1980 told me I was neutral evil.

(we were sort of having an argument at the time)

For those of you who have never played Dungeons and Dragons (D&D), here’s a fair description of the concept of alignment, and more specifically about the neutral evil alignment, although this other person and I go with the altruistic/selfish view of good/evil rather than the newer version, which is too simplistic to translate to reality.

(If you need more examples, here’s a whole slew of alignment charts applied to fictional characters. Some charts are more accurate than others.)

Now, at first him saying I was neutral evil hurt my feelings. I always thought of myself as neutral good, or at least that’s what I always wanted to be.

But then I thought about it a while, looked at my life, at who I really am, and decided that perhaps this is why the course has been so difficult for me: I am trying to change my alignment.

In D&D, changing alignment is a serious matter for a player-character: you change not only how you are as a person, you change everything, down to your gods. Changing alignment costs you, in a big way.

This explains some things. It’s making me re-evaluate my DMP, and why I do what I do, why I want what I want. This … failure, if you will (if not in me as a person but certainly in my relationships), is becoming an opportunity, because it opened my eyes to what I was pretending not to know.

I need to stop trying to change my life and change it.

(Sort of like Morpheus and Neo when they’re fighting.)

I’m scheduling this post. When it appears, I’ll be driving to New Orleans on Thursday, to go to Wizard World Comic Con and sell my book, and to go to a business conference. My dress will be done. How do I know? Because I have thought the matter through and starting at noon, for ten hours today (Tuesday) I will work on that dress. If it’s not done, then I will start at noon and work on it for ten hours Wednesday, or until it’s done.

I will make it happen.

(okay, now I really am getting silly here, channeling Palpatine, but it’s going to happen, and my week will be awesome)

So if you have failed, are failing, no matter how badly, it doesn’t matter. You can turn that failure into a chance to become someone that you weren’t before.

Look for the opportunity.

Find the resources and abilities in yourself that you didn’t know you had.

Make it happen.

See you next week. 🙂

Week 13: Effects and causes

This week, Haanel talks more about causes and effects: more specifically, that each of the effects we see around us, from natural to man-made, have a particular cause. Once we find the cause, we can create the effect for ourselves whenever we want.

For example: people have observed birds flying, leaves floating, and so on, since the beginning of humanity, and for thousands of years people spent their lives trying to create the effect without understanding the cause. As far as I can tell, even the Wright brothers more or less stumbled upon the effect, and so we have airplanes. But once we learned the cause (aerodynamics) we could create the effect of flying whenever we wanted to!

I think it’s the same way with the other effects in our lives. We see how our lives are, and we spend our lives trying to create situations which we think are good, without really understanding the cause of either why we are here now or why someone who has what we want got that.

(many times, we don’t really even know what we want in the first place, but that’s another matter)

We may stumble upon it, and many often do. When we understand the cause, though, we’ll be able to create that effect whenever we like.

During the first part of the class (and some people are still struggling with the question) we asked: what do you want? That is the effect.

But what is the cause? That is what we need to figure out.

(This reminds me a bit of our battleship exercise.)

Haanel talks about belief, about the Universal Mind, about how our thoughts become the cause which creates literal effects in our existence. Not supernatural. Not mystical. Real effects from a real cause: your thoughts.

(If the thoughts you create inside your own head are not real, then what is?)

Anyone who’s tried to guide their thoughts (aka the 7 day mental diet) has learned how difficult it is at first. Just like anyone else who’s trying to create an effect, it takes some doing. Things (whether a positive mental attitude or a skyscraper) do not just jump into existence because you wish they would.

So now the task is to examine the effects we want then go back to see what the cause might be for this. Haanel gives us a clue:

The athlete may read books and lessons on physical training all his life, but unless he begins to give out strength by actual work he will never receive any strength; he will eventually get exactly what he gives; but he will have to give it first. It is exactly the same with us; we will get exactly what we give, but we shall have to give it first. It will then return to us many fold, and the giving is simply a mental process, because thoughts are causes and conditions are effects; therefore in giving thoughts of courage, inspiration, health or help of any kind we are setting causes in motion which will bring about their effect.

Or as Mark J likes to say: give more, get more.

This is more like a clue-bat: an athlete who just sat around reading books about training but never did any would be ridiculed!

But we say we want wealth yet are fearful, greedy, and stingy; say we want happiness but are mean to others, or think of unhappy things all day; say we want health but do and think things we know are unhealthy. And so we get what we think about.

You see, the law of attraction is no different from any other law. It works 100% of the time. You can’t get away from it any more than you can get away from the law of gravity. You reap what you sow.

Right now is a good time of year to think about these things, because while you may be sure of the effect you want, if you don’t understand the cause then you probably won’t get that effect.

Week 11: I hear that train a-comin’

The question I had to face this week was: if I’ve been doing all this manifesting stuff right for the past year or so, why am I still not getting everything I want? Haanel has the answer:

“… while every effect is the result of a cause, the effect in turn becomes a cause, which create other effects, which in turn create still other causes; so that when you put the law of attraction into operation you must remember that you are starting a train of causation for good or otherwise which may have endless possibilities.”

In other words, the things you are getting right now are things which you (or if you’re a baby, dog, or other creature without agency, someone else) started manifesting a LONG time ago, just as a train doesn’t just appear on the tracks but has to be created and moved to where you are, and you’re not getting a train going anywhere from a dead stop in a hurry. It usually takes at least a little time. And conversely, the things you’re manifesting now will also take some time to get going depending on what they are and whether you may have the brakes on. 🙂


I have had a problem with being addicted to scarcity. I grew up rich as a child then my parents lost everything and it took a long time for them to get back to a good place financially, and then my father died and we were poor again. Then it took a really long time to get my career going (making more than I could ever imagine), and then I had a nervous breakdown.

I feel as if my old blueprint is set up to say ‘If you become wealthy it only brings you pain, loss, stress, and illness.’

I’ve talked about this before, and yet this week here I was again with that old demon. I wanted to manifest success in my business and it has seemed as if all I get is resistance at every turn.563121_630170500357775_1390384717_n

Then this popped up in my Facebook feed. And it hit me like … like someone slapped me in the face.

I have marked myself down.

Even now, I feel emotional at writing it.

I do feel as if I’m not being treated with love and respect.

But I really have a dilemma, because this business is everything I have ever wanted. It’s smack in the middle of my DMP. It – theoretically – meets both my PPNs. It’s been a passion of mine for decades. It’s my ticket to the dream of my life. It’s one of the things I want to be remembered for.

Do I just walk away? Or do I sidestep the rock there on the beach and keep going?

Anyway, I don’t have to decide any major business things today. But what I did do is to sign up for a course about upping your game in your business, which just so happened to be in the same place and a few days after a major venue to sell my book at which I’ve been looking at going to for months.

So I’m getting the feeling that the universe is nudging me along. Maybe it’s not the business. Maybe it’s the people I put on the damn train.

I already made the decision to set up an environment where the ones who won’t behave will kick themselves out, and if they don’t, I’m fully prepared to kick them out of the train myself.

But I feel as if I need to change me as well. I need to get off that clearance rack, the kiddie track, stop discounting, stop pricing my products to feed into the scarcity mindset that the whole rest of the world has. That’s the opposite of why I started the business in the first place.

I keep thinking of this quote from Og Mandino, which I’ll just leave here:

I was not delivered into this world in defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. I am not a sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepherd. I am a lioness and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep. I hear not those who weep and complain, for their disease is contagious. Let them join the sheep. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny.

 

 

Week 9: the seed must be love

I hope all of you have had a good week. Here in the US we have been celebrating our Thanksgiving holiday, which is full of good food (most of which I make in our household, although this year one of my sons helped me make the pies), seeing friends and family, and relaxing.

It’s mostly about love, which is what I want to talk about today.


I didn’t really know what to do my blog on this week, yet several interesting things happened which subby brought together for me this morning on my sit:

  • I’ve had several wonderful emails: Master Key members thanking me for being their guide and friends who are reading my novel telling me how much they like it.
  • My daughter bought me a DVD copy of Bicentennial Man as an early Christmas present, a movie we only had in VHS.
  • After dinner was served, my kids picked to watch V for Vendetta

But let’s back up. There are certain premises I’m basing what I’m about to say on:no coincidences

  1. that every thing which happens or is has a cause. Things don’t just appear. There are no magic wands.
  2. that just as a seed will only sprout into the plant which corresponds to it, a particular cause will produce a particular effect. If you throw a ball up, gravity will bring it down. If you plant pumpkin seeds, you get pumpkins, not daisies or sweet potatoes or turnips.

The truly interesting thing about all these events this week is that they were about love.


I have to admit that I judge people on whether they like Bicentennal Man. I feel it is the most underrated Robin Williams movie out there; it’s the only one I can bear to watch even now, a year after his death.

If you’re not familiar with it, the movie is about a human spirit trapped inside a robot, who spends his entire life trying to deal with a world who sees him as “a household appliance”. He wants recognition as a person. He wants respect. He wants love. And when he falls in love, he helps millions of other people while trying to save the woman he loves from death.


You see, when you plant love, you reap much more than what you sow.

We all see the results in the news of planting hate or fear.

V for Vendetta has many interesting characters in it, but the main two people I really feel the movie is about are V and Inspector Finch.

V says some things I find quite interesting. When he’s trying to help Evey through her mini-breakdown:

See, at first I thought it was hate, too. Hate was all I knew, it built my world, it imprisoned me, taught me how to eat, how to drink, how to breathe. I thought I’d die with all my hate in my veins. But then something happened.

When she begs him not to go through with his plan, that they could run away together, he says, “I can’t.” Why?

It’s because of what he says at the very end:

For 20 years, I sought only this day. Nothing else existed… until I saw you. Then everything changed.

V never comes out and says it, but I think that he knew that if he ran away with her, not only would she never be safe, but he would betray all those people he had called to be there that night.

It was no longer about hate. It was about love.

And then we come to Inspector Finch, who I believe is the most interesting man in the show. Why? Because he was on that panel! He was at the highest place possible in that society yet his love for the truth brought him to where he could no longer ignore what was going on. Without that transformation the ending could never have happened.


What does any of this have to do with the Master Key Experience? Everything. Because when you plant love, when you reach down into your soul with those roots of yours and find what you love, what drives you, what you were born to do, then sacrifice (which a TON of people in the class are still having trouble with) becomes obvious. You know what you’d be willing to give up in order to get what you want. You know exactly what you need to do, to change, to let go of, in order to get it.

So if you’re still struggling with what your sacrifice is, it seems to me that either you haven’t thought the matter through or your motivation isn’t love. Your DMP is still about the cement: the hate, the fear, the whatever the world outside has told you that you should want. Because when the seed is love, the plant is strong and beautiful, and nothing can stand in its way.

Week 8: the world is filled with outrage

I was going to write about all the nonsense that’s been going on in the past week or two, about Paris and Mexico, Kenya and Baghdad, the poor Syrians and the frightful situation still going on in Japan (where I lived for a short while), but it seems as if even now, people are moving on to the latest outrage de jour.

Emmet Fox has something to say about all that in the 7 Day Mental Diet:

If I witness an accident or an act of injustice, instead of reacting with pity or indignation, I refuse to accept the appearance at its face value; I do anything I can to right matters, I give it right thought, and let it go at that …

For I only have one life: a limited number of years, of months, of weeks, of days, hours, minutes, seconds. How many do I have left?1505372433_f9fb36a779_m

I don’t know, which is the very point. Instead of using the finite time and energy I have on things I neither know much about or can do anything about, I must focus, just as a magnifying glass focuses the rays of the sun, on things I am good at, I can physically do, I enjoy doing, I want to do, and what fulfills my needs: the things I was born to do, that only I can do in order to make this world better.

That may or may not involve the outrage de jour; it’s likely not to. The mob always goes for the quick and easy path.

Today, I went on a walk. It was cold and clear, the autumn leaves were brilliant. We have an exercise this week in the Master Keys to go backwards in time from a physical object (a battleship) to its sources. I did that for a whole week last year, so I decided to tackle my most impressive of objects: the space habitat I will design the landscaping for. I looked up into the blue morning sky, and imagined it. How did it get there? What happens to get it up there?

It was the most amazing experience. When I came back from the growth, the plantings, the development of the soil, the forming of the areas to hold the soil in, the building of the station itself, the technologies needed to create the parts (3D printing, I think, is the way), gathering the raw materials, building a place for these constructions to happen and the people doing them to live, the backers and engineers to send these things up, rallying and finding these people, the idea, the dream.

Me, walking along a suburban street in a housing tract in central Oklahoma.Sun_through_Conifer_Leaves

I felt for the first time, today, that this really could happen. I see it. Not every little detail, but I know when it will happen. I know where I will be living, say, 20-30 years from now: there on that space habitat, when those fruit trees are grown enough so I can look up and see the sun (or whatever we set up to pass for the sun) shining down at me through their branches.

I know that I am called to make this happen. It is what I was born to do. This is the way I will fulfill my PPN of Legacy: I will matter, and pass on something which inspires people for generations to come.

You can too.

Why spend your time worrying about the outrage de jour when you can change the world?

 

 

Photo credits: Dave Gough via Flickr, Ryan Hodnett via Wikipedia

Week 7: a little bit of this, a little bit of that

All sorts of stuff has been happening for me this week! It’s been difficult to narrow it down to one topic, so I hope you don’t mind a bit of a list.men-working-978394_640

As Mark J likes to say: you want a friend, get a dog. Confronting people on their bullshit is hard for me; my old blueprint is all about people liking me and avoiding conflict at all costs.

Well, I came across someone who is both manifesting some intensely interesting things and turning away from what they insist that they really want, simply out of fear, and I called them out on it.

I don’t think they’re real happy with me, but you know what? I no longer care (for more than about 20 minutes to cry about the fact that they’re upset with me, anyway) what others think of me. What this person is doing leads to the dark side.

The things they’re manifesting (to me, anyway, but of course this is just my opinion) seem to be the visualizations of others rather than anything they said that they want.

That is the big danger of not having control of your mind: you see examples of people getting their dreams (or nightmares) in living color, and your subby, for lack of any real vision on your part, manifests that instead.

To me, this is just more cement!!

I almost fell into that trap last year, and it took me a while to see that no, I don’t NEED or HAVE to want what others — even others I respect, honor, and admire — want.

It’s okay to want what I want. I am worth something.

What people don’t seem to realize is that, contrary to popular belief, you’re ALWAYS manifesting things. Every waking minute. So you better have YOUR dreams front and center, in detail, or you’ll get swept away in everyone else’s visions that produce emotion in you.

Subby is a simple little thing, who just wants to give you more of what makes you have strong emotion, whether “good” or “bad” emotion (subby can’t tell the difference).

So you have to VISUALIZE what YOU want, with EMOTION.

Or as Mark loves to say, ENTHUSIASM!

I was sitting this morning reading my DMP and the truth of this finally hit me: when you get your two most important needs met (your PPNs) then the rest come along.

I really can have everything a person could possibly want. Not only True Health and Legacy, but Helping Others, Recognition for Creative Expression, Liberty, Autonomy, and Spiritual Growth.

That feels really good.

In other news: my book The Jacq of Spades is available to buy! Another successful development from my DMP. 🙂

Week 5 – Limitations

I’m in the middle of getting another box checked off on my DMP! I’m doing the cover reveal for my upcoming novel in a few hours. And it feels awesome. Exhausting, but awesome!!

Chris basically wrote what I was going to write (maybe better) so I’m going to leave this here:

As we go into week five of the Master Key Master Mind Alliance course I find that this past week a word has popped up more frequently than I had noticed in the past, maybe it’s because of what I am learning through this course, maybe it’s because I am beginning to observe things a little differently, maybe it’s the positive literature that we’ve been instructed to bombard our mind with day in and day out through this course, maybe it’s my old blueprint desperately clinging to my subconscious mind trying to get back in, maybe it’s the new blueprint showing me what’s held me back for so long.

The word is limitations.

Go read his blog and watch the video. It made me cry for several reasons.

I’m sure you can figure it out if you have known me very long.

Week 4 – how do you want to feel?

10273430_10152211471133366_7187797986126513386_nI’ve been reading a book lately which has really made an impact.

I’m not going to share the name of it right now because this is the week where everyone gets sidetracked on reading other stuff and doing other stuff … and I’m not going to be part of contributing to that.

But what I’ve gotten out of it so far is very much like what we’re doing here in the Master Key class, but coming at it in a different direction.

In week 2 you get a couple of sheets which I have tacked up on my wall: Seven Laws of the Mind. One of them is called the Law of Dual Thought:

Thought is a combination of ideation and feeling. We can attach any feeling to a thought we want.

The reason why I mention this is that the book I’m reading is all about the question, “How do you want to feel?”

I believe that most of the problems in this world are an attempt not to feel. Most of the business of refusing the call is an attempt not to feel, whether it’s not to feel

  • shame at failing (because in your particular old blueprint you always fail)
  • guilt at wanting something for yourself instead of others (this is very common in women)
  • fear that your feelings will overwhelm you or make you less of a person (very common in men)

or whatever your issue is.

Feelings are what makes us human. When we can’t identify how we want to feel or deny the fact that we do feel, we cut ourselves off from the rest of humanity, worse yet, from the source of life within us (whatever you want to call it: the Universe, God, etc). We begin to die inside.

So we need to feel: the good, the bad, the ugly.

The sit is good for that, which is why so many avoid it, find problems with it, don’t have time for it, would rather do anything else but it. Sitting, alone, in silence, not moving, you’re forced to deal with yourself. Who you are. What you feel.

And I think it’s this more than anything else which makes grown up people throw tantrums and flounce away from changing their life. They are SO afraid to feel.

Hopefully, if you’ve gotten this far you’re at least beginning to get past that. So I’ll ask you: how do you want to feel?

I found this question very helpful. Even though I did the course last year and I’m a guide now…

(and released from supervision, woo hoo!)

(still love you Dayna! but I’m excited to be making progress)

… I have gone round and round with my PPNs (personal pivotal needs). But reading about the question of how I want to feel, and how others want to feel brought me up against:

I want to feel like I matter.

Which is the definition of Legacy! Which is something I’ve been thinking about for a while, but reading that made it click for me. Now my DMP makes much more sense.

So if you’re having trouble with your PPNs or your DMP, think about what you want to feel!

Week 3: refusing the call

Being a Master Key Experience guide gives me a unique perspective on the course. Not only am I doing the course again with the members (and getting new insights on my own) but I’m watching fifteen people make – or not make – their own Hero journeys.

Every hero refuses the call at first. That refusal can be anything:

  • procrastination to the point where they miss the application deadline (about 400 people did that),
  • confusion to the point where they don’t do any of the work and are eventually asked to leave,
  • defensiveness: refusal to get help when they clearly need it or arguing when they do get some,
  • manifesting obstacles,
  • all the way to downright saying “I’m out”.

These are people who are simply being asked to answer the question: what do you want?

As far as I know no one has been actually asked to leave yet in the over 600 people enrolled, but I’m sure there will be some fireworks to come. 🙂

What is refusing the call about? Fear.

It’s interesting that Haanel spends most of part 3 talking about fear, since so much of it is coming out right about now. The solution for it is expressed best in the week 3 study questions:

How may fear be completely eliminated?

By an understanding and recognition of the true source of all power.

I feel like these first few weeks are the most difficult of the course … like weeks 2-6. In week 1, you’re all pumped up, ready for anything. Then it sort of stops being so exciting and fun and begins to feel like work. Lots of stuff to do but maybe not so much happening yet. I remember those days very well.

But then once you accept the call, step across into the unknown, you begin to ‘get it’ – the light bulb turns on, you start seeing what this is really all about and it becomes much easier.

Some people are beginning to get it even now: the realization that YOU can change your life, that YOU have power, not because “you’re being your own god” as some ignorant person put on Facebook, but because God/The Universe/whatever is IN YOU, is directly connected to your subconscious mind, and you have the ability to communicate directly to that Power.

Every religious figure and most philosophers have said this over the past 6000 years, but people still want to cling to the old blueprint that tells them some authority figure or organization or society needs to tell them what to do and think in order to be okay instead of relying on the power within them like their own religious books tell them to do. It would be funny if it weren’t so sad.

But I’m seeing some amazing breakthroughs as people do the work and really wrestle with these questions on their own. It’s truly exciting to see what can happen when you stop refusing the call.