I’ve been having a LOT of anxiety the past few days.
I almost laughed when I read this week’s lesson, which seems to focus right in on fear.
I’ll take that as a sign that all this is normal.
One of the things I have been anxious about (as you know if you’ve actually been reading this) is the pay it forward part of the course.
Don’t get me wrong — it’s one of the most humbling things to know that total strangers paid my way into this, and I WANT very much to contribute.
It’s just that I started a new business about this time last year and well you know how new businesses can get. I’m about two grand in the hole right now with this one, and seeing as I vowed NOT to use any more of my dear husband’s money on my businesses (after a spectacular debacle back in the early 2000’s), the thought of yet another thing to pay for was stressing me out.
But somewhere in there I must have been telling subby I NEED MORE MONEY RIGHT NOW, because lo, and behold! the other day one of my stocks (that had been doing very well indeed) hit its stop loss, and I made $775 in one day! 🙂
One of the great things about this course is the “alliances” which so far is a sort of jumbled up forum where people ask questions, make comments, and sort of talk to each other.
A lot of times, because it’s not really organized in any way, it ends up being a lot of the same comments and questions over and over. But it’s pretty fun, and helpful, as there’s always someone on there if you have something to say or need help with something.
Anyway, I made a comment about something (well, it was more of a complaint/grumble/vent) and one of the staff thanked me for being so honest. It’s the second time on these forums that someone has said that.
But this time, it’s stuck with me.
I guess almost dying will do that to you??
(I’m serious, I did come way too close to being dead back in 1998. Like actually in the ground dead.)
(here comes the mini-rant)
I have had a big case of WTF’ing F?? going on today.
Do they have a problem with people not being honest??
It seems to me that if you’re not going to at least TRY to be honest with this then why are you freaking here? Why take a spot that someone used THEIR money TO PAY YOUR WAY FOR, that could have GONE TO SOMEONE ELSE, if you’re not serious about this?
I mean really. I may be a totally messed up crazy woman in the eyes of the world, but I am DEAD SERIOUS about getting well and changing my life. And if that means doing my best to be balls-out honest with total strangers on the internet then so be it.
Be honest or go home. Or as they say, if you can’t run with the big dogs, stay on the porch.
Love you guys.
Have a great day.