This week’s reading focused on the “I”.
Most people think who they are is a race, or a gender, or a nationality, or a religion, or an ethnic group, or a sexual identity. Haanel says that we are not our bodies, as they are just tools of the “I”, just as much as the internet, our car, or the spoon we use to eat with.
Others think that who they are is their mind, but no, the Master Keys says, the mind is also just a tool. When you say “I think”, there is an “I” who is using the mind to do the thinking, the planning, and the acting.
So who am “I”?
The “I” must be something which controls and directs both the body and the mind
He goes on to mention that your “I” is not your personality either, as this is simply the result of your former ways of thinking, your old blueprint, if you will.
So what is the “I”? How can you find out who “you” really are?
He mentions exercises to train yourself to think, to strengthen your conscious mind — your World Without — so it can constructively address the World Within — your subby.
… when you have learned to control yourself you will have found the “World Within” which controls the world without; you will have become irresistible; men and things will respond to your every wish without any apparent effort on your part.
This is not so strange or impossible as it may appear when you remember that the “World Within” is controlled by the “I” and that this “I” is a part or one with the Infinite “I” which is the Universal Energy ….
… referring to the Universal Mind. As I mentioned before, each of our subbies is an outlet to the Universal Mind.
So who “I” am, deep down, is my subby, who uses my mind and body to navigate and create my world.
Now you might be asking at this point, “So if I’m an outlet to the infinite power of God, why is my life so screwed up?”
The greatest and most marvelous power which this “I” has been given is the power tho think, but few people know how to think constructively, or correctly, consequently they achieve only indifferent results. Most people allow their thoughts to dwell on selfish purposes, the inevitable result of an infantile mind. When a mind becomes mature, it understands that the germ of defeat is in every selfish thought.
Basically, it’s because our conscious mind has abdicated as the “watchman at the gate”, and instead is preoccupied with Ebola, or the Kardashians, or the fall TV shows, or how the government is doing this or that, instead of being focused on anything constructive.
He takes pains to make it clear that he doesn’t mean we should give away everything and live in poverty, becoming what most people think of as “selfless”. I personally feel that this attitude is self-destructive and a attempt to selfishly garner pity and attention for how “holy” you are.
I think Haanel agrees:
Self-denial is not success. We cannot give unless we get; we cannot be helpful unless we are strong. The Infinite is not a bankrupt and we who are the representatives of Infinite power should not be bankrupts either, and if we wish to be of service to others we must have power and more power, but to get it we must give it; we must be of service.
He later says:
… we must be a channel whereby the Universal can express activity. The Universal is constantly seeking to express itself, to be of service, and it seeks the channel whereby it can find the greatest activity, where it can do the most good …
I find this seriously exciting! Remember all the little atoms in the Universal Mind’s “plastic mind substance”? Well, they are out there looking to see who is ready to do something good and useful so they can help!
There is so much in this chapter that I could be writing all day … but what we’re doing this week is basically a baby step attempt to turn our minds from our own pettiness and negativity on towards the ideals and aspirations that uniquely touch each of us individually, because these are the things which the “I” has always wanted to do, before the rest of the world with its ideas cast us into some cement copy of someone else (who probably isn’t either happy or doing much with their lives).
And this is only week 4!! I can’t imagine what will happen at the end of this. This whole thing is too exciting for words. 😀