I wrote this in the “Insights” section of the MKMMA forums just now:
I had a major breakthrough today while sitting. I have had a lot of trouble visualizing what I wanted, and not been able to FEEL what it might be like until today.
I tried picturing a couple I have just recently become acquainted with, we were where we last hung out together, at an outdoor concert, and I imagined the wife asking me what going to Hawaii was like. Suddenly I could picture it all — my toes in the sand around a fire, seeing the ocean, getting to hug Mark J and Davene and all of you. It was overwhelming and I had to stop the timer a couple times because tears of happiness just came out so much.
I was able to visualize seeing my friends’ son graduate (he’s at Chaminade, which is why I was going to Hawaii in the first place), but then also to visualize publishing my novel, getting on the NYT best seller list, and other travels. I was even able to visualize going through the TSA line (which has been a phobia) and giving Avon books to the workers and them being happy and joyful about it!
I can’t tell you how overwhelmingly grateful I am for this course. If you are struggling PLEASE DO NOT GIVE UP. I know you probably by this time feel negative coming here and seeing others succeed where you haven’t yet because that’s how I felt. But it will happen and it will be SO worth it. 🙂
Which is exactly how I feel (and more). I cried for about ten minutes after I wrote that, but they were totally tears of happiness and gratitude.
Something has happened inside me, and whatever it is, it’s a great thing.