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Week 4 – letting go

Letting go can (I suppose) be good or bad, depending on your point of view. Maybe I just need to not have an opinion on it altogether.


This has been one of those weeks where you want to chuck it all and do something else.

You ever have weeks like that?

In some ways, that dissatisfaction with the way things are is good – it’s a sign that you’re ready to make a serious shift in your life. But until the shift happens, it’s sort of uncomfortable.

Even now, I’ve been going over my old blog posts, trying to figure out how to make sense of some of the things which are going on in my life right now. Trying to figure out what to write today. And all I can think of is letting go.letting go

But what do I let go of? That’s the question which has dogged me. How do you know what to let go of and what to keep? When to do what you’ve said you’ll do and when to let it go as a bad decision and take the consequences?

I had one such decision to make this week.

Months ago I felt weird about doing something, but it seemed like a good financial decision, so I laid the plans for it even though I didn’t feel enthusiastic about it.

But some extremely serious things have happened – unrelated to myself – which made me have to take a moral stand around the matter, and it’s been keeping me up at night for the past few weeks.

I felt torn between financial needs and moral obligations, desire to help and rage at even being anywhere near the place I said I would be, and a voice waking me up every morning telling me not to do this thing I said I would do.

I had no idea why these strong feelings came to me around this issue. Objectively, it wasn’t all that big of a deal. But it bothered me immensely. Was I using this as an excuse, failing to break through my comfort zone? Or was I in danger of ignoring the strong direction of my intuition?

So I did a bit of a sit. How did it feel to not do this? How did it feel to do this?

And I followed my heart. Which was telling me not to do this.

All of a sudden, when I became serious about letting go, I knew exactly why I needed not to do this (personal/family reason) and it all made sense.

It was so strange – if I listened to my inner guidance months ago, had realized letting go was the right thing to do weeks ago, I would have saved a ton of money, time, and angst. Why didn’t I listen?

I feel as though I have held on to some weird part of my old blueprint which still is trying to run things.

It’s difficult to explain, especially to those of you who’ve never taken this course. But I’m seeing implications running through everything. Areas where I’ve ignored clear signs and direction as to what to do because I had invested in something which could not serve me or my family and was unwilling to admit I’d been wrong.

What does this have to do with the Master Key Experience? Well, everything. I would never have been able to sort through this and come to the point of letting go without the help of this course. I certainly wouldn’t have been able to see what the problem was or how to solve it. So I feel very grateful. I feel as if this is a new direction for me.

I ran across something earlier today which had me in tears:

At times you may find yourself between worlds, unsure about anything, with no idea what is being asked of you. It is clear some sort of death has occurred and that things will never be the same again.

But where is the rebirth? The new life purpose? The promised healing, intimacy, clarity, and joy?

Nothing has yet emerged from the womb of Now. No direction for the journey ahead. Or so it seems.

While the uncertainty can be disorienting, in another sense you are home. In this realm, terror and exhilaration co-arise and weave in and out of one another. They appear as they are – energies of aliveness, filled with information for the journey ahead. But the data they carry is holy, and not always navigable by the density of the mind.

The alternating waves of hope and hopelessness, appearing and dissolving in a vast field of holding. In this environment, even fear is seen as an emissary, a special tour guide into the hidden places of the sacred world.

Yes, the longing can be excruciating at times… for healing, for transcendence, for understanding, for some magical “other” to come and remind you of how majestic you truly are. There is a cosmic ache for clarity, for ground, and for some resolution to all the contradictions. A yearning for just a moment of rest and respite from the raging, full-spectrum relentlessness of the unknown.

Perhaps the greatest act of kindness and surrender now is to turn toward the death and the reorganization. To stay embodied to the “falling apart,” and discover if you were ever “together” to begin with. For what you are is beyond all this.

You are the warm erupting luminous space in which “together” and “apart” are lovers, dancing together into eternity, spinning with one another so that the unprecedented majesty of what you are can finally break through and find safe passage here into a world that has gone a bit mad.

Right in between the death and the rebirth is the secret place. Stay there and listen. And feel the waves of sweet and fierce love, as they descend and wash through. – Matt Licata

Be well. 🙂

 

Week 3 – Fear and power

This week’s lesson (I feel) is about power, and fear. The part about power is easy and interesting: where power comes from, how to get it, what to do with it — these are all fascinating topics. What people don’t really like to talk about is fear.

But fear is really the part which keeps us from getting the power we need to do what it is we want. Haanel makes that quite clear:

When fear is effectually and completely destroyed, your light will shine, the clouds will disperse and you will have found the source of power, energy and life.

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None of us are immune to fear. We can push it aside, keep it at bay, but if we aren’t careful, it can creep right back in again. It’s all part of being human.

The biggest problem with fear is that it can cause us to make bad decisions. To not do things which are in our own best interests.To push away those trying to bring us wisdom. To not take opportunities which could help us!

So our major task is to focus on getting rid of fear, right?

Nope. If you focus on what you don’t want, subby brings you more of the thing you focus on. That is the Law of Attraction, in its negative form.

So what do we want?

We want the power, the ability, to get past the fear, to not let it stop what we want for our lives.

And if you read part 3, Haanel gives quite explicit instructions on how to activate the source of our power: what we in the MKE call the Sit. Purposeful silence. With this plus the mental diet, plus the other little exercises we do, many members are even now beginning to learn how to activate this power within them.

Sounds too good to be true? Yeah. I know. It does. But that’s your fear talking. 🙂

 

 

 

What do we manifest?

I guess I’ve been thinking a lot about what we manifest, and what we don’t.

The last few weeks have been pretty hectic – getting my book ready for the proofreader, going on a two week vacation in California which turned into a lot of driving around in a rental to deal with my daughter’s car (which we drove there) breaking down, then trying to catch up with all the things neglected by being gone two weeks. You know how it can go.

I wasn’t 100% sure I wanted to go on the trip in the first place. I had a lot to do. My husband didn’t want me to go (he never did say why). But I thought it would be a nice way to get away, relax, go to the beach, and see family. I did do those things, but the trip turned out to be way more stressful than I anticipated.

Through most of the things which went wrong in California, I kept thinking, did I manifest this? Or is this stuff my daughter is manifesting? Because I honestly didn’t know. It was a very strange, beautiful, interesting trip. And unfortunately, quite expensive for all of us.

I’m not sure there’s any way to know. It could be that what happened was a combination of a lot of unexamined thoughts floating around in our heads. Or it could have been just random.

The good thing is that I felt a lot better about what happened than I ever would have a few years ago! I would have been some sort of nervous wreck the whole time. But I took all my driving around by myself while everyone else was at the beach as a chance for some silence and to serve my family. So I guess it turned out okay. 🙂

Visualization

I’ve been camping on Part 7 of the Master Keys this week, because it seems to me to be one of (if not the) most important chapters in the book. It talks heavily about visualization, how to do it, how to get better at it, and the different steps in the process.

Why is this important? Because when you can clearly see what you’re going to do, how you’re going to do it, and the things involved in making whatever you’re planning happen, getting it to happen is easy.

Haanel compares it to an architect planning a bridge. The strength of hundreds of parts must be determined in advance if the bridge is to hold up to traffic, weather, and so on. So much thought goes into a bridge, yet so few people put any thought into what they want the rest of their lives to be like

While I sat this week, visualizing the things I wanted in my life, how I wanted my day to go, I began to see what things I liked weren’t really doing much for me in other ways. I decided to sell a website I like but isn’t vital to me. I’m evaluating another to see if it needs to stay or go. It’s difficult work, because my ego wants me to believe that I can do it all, have it all, be it all, and be great in all of them, all at the same time.

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Week 23: deep thought

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As I mentioned in my last post, most people will do just about anything to avoid thinking.

I see it all around me: people asking questions when a two second Google search would do. Collecting opinions to see what everyone else thinks about an intensely personal matter.

I don’t believe it has anything to do with wanting to fit in – it’s about the fear of deep thought, an intense fear of what you might hear inside, if you would just stop and listen.

People are so … distrustful of themselves, of their own hearts, so wanting to control and avoid whatever they are so terrified might happen, that they would rather look unintelligent, dependent, and incapable than spend just a few minutes in deep thought.

Haanel puts it this way:

 The average person is entirely innocent of any deep thinking; he accepts the ideas of others, and repeats them, in very much the same way as a parrot; this is readily seen when we understand the method which is used to form public opinion, and this docile attitude on the part of a large majority who seem perfectly willing to let a few persons do all their thinking for them is what enables a few men in a great many countries to usurp all the avenues of power and hold the millions in subjection.

If you’re here, I’m assuming you don’t want to be like the average person – instead, you want to make a difference, to improve your life, to make things better inside yourself and around you.

So why is thinking important? Who cares if we think or not? How does thinking benefit us?

Some of you are laughing right now. Others of you are serious. It’s the second group I want to address.

Bottom line: Silent, prolonged, deep thought is how you connect with the Universal Mind (Whatever you want to call it/him/her. Don’t get twisted up about the name.)

There is nothing mystical about it. Not one thing.

Have you ever been really focused on finding a solution to a problem then … AHA! … the answer comes to you? Remember that feeling. Hold onto it. What happened is called inspiration.

From dictionary.com:

Inspiration: noun. 5. Theology. a. A divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or soul.

Okay, now, if you don’t believe in divine influence, fine. But something happened there, something which is important, something we can use to our benefit.

Notice what happened before that AHA moment? You were exercising deep concentrated thinking. You were thinking very intently on your problem. And then BAM! – the answer came, as if out of nowhere. But it wasn’t out of nowhere. In that instant, you made the connection – to whoever or whatever you want to call it – and got your answer.

And you can get that answer again, to any question you want answered. Anything. World peace, end hunger, that one thing in your life you always yearned for, it doesn’t matter how big or small it is. You can get the inspiration … the answer to any question you have. You just have to learn how.

(which is what the Master Key Experience teaches you)

Now, I’m not saying I’m enlightened or achieve this all the time. If anything, I’m a student. But I’ve gotten the answers to things which frankly amaze me, things I very much wanted the answers to.

(that’s part of the equation, by the way – you have to really truly want the answer … which means getting the blocks like fear, etc out of the way first … )

You have a couple of choices. You can keep reading along and hope you can figure it out on your own. Or you can take a step forward into understanding yourself.

I have a brief pamphlet written in the 1930’s called The Seven Day Mental Diet. If you follow the instructions in it, you’ll begin seeing a lot about yourself and others. If you’d like a copy, let me know.

 

 

Week 22a: 11 ways to avoid thinking

When I was doing my Silence, it occurred to me that most of what we do is to avoid thinking.

So for those of you who aren’t interested in learning to think, control your mind, or have a better life, here are some wonderful tips on how to do that:

  1. Never do your Sit. It takes too much time. You’ve got better things to do. Besides, you can function just fine with your kids, partner, phone, TV and computer going all at once.
  2. Have every app on your phone send you notifications! You’ll be bombarded with noise from your email, messages and apps. How fun is that?
  3. Check your email, social media, and websites every hour. Every one of them. You know, just in case.black-892457_640
  4. Turn on the TV to a 24 hour news network and keep it on all day and all night. Put a TV in every room of your house. You never know what you might be missing.
  5. Never go anywhere without at least one person with you, especially someone who talks constantly.
  6. Better yet, you talk constantly. Stream of consciousness is good for you.
  7. Eat every hour, more if you feel like it. Between preparing, eating, and cleaning up, you’ll be constantly busy. Keeps you from having to think. And make sure you eat in front of the TV, computer, or both. You’ll never have to think then.
  8. Keep busy. Busy, busy, busy! Don’t ever take any time to yourself. You’ll get lots of praise and admiration from others for being so darn busy, plus you’ll have a great excuse for when you don’t want to do something.
  9. Your vice of choice, whatever it is. Smoking, drinking, gaming, and drugs are great ways to avoid thinking.
  10. If you are forced to be alone, for example, you’re driving somewhere or in the shower, make sure there’s something to listen to. Audiobooks, radio, your favorite tunes, whatever. They’ll stop you from thinking for sure!
  11. When you do think, it’s important to think of negative things. Worry a lot. Get angry. Feel sorry for yourself. Indulge all the negativity you can. That will be sure to keep you from thinking about anything useful.

So there you have it: eleven awesome ways to keep from thinking.

If this does not sound fun, useful, peaceful, or like anything you want, then why not try another way?