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Looking back

Looking back at my second year with the Master Key Experience, I’d have to say it’s been pretty amazing. This time last year I was on my way to completing something I never thought I would even try – and it worked out great! Since then, I’ve:12841274_234206800257983_4398829372072310848_o

  • traveled to Hawaii (Kauai, Oahu, and the Big Island)
  • became a Certified Guide for the Master Key Experience
  • did the Small Product Lab (and made something cool)
  • made my first ever book trailer
  • did my first Indiegogo
  • published a novel (the Kindle version has broken the top 1000 in its categories on Amazon several times now)
  • written the second in the series (I’m revising it at present)
  • decided to quit selling Avon (it’s just not what I want to spend my time doing)
  • went to Wizard World New Orleans to sell my book (wow! That con was huge!)
  • did my first ever webinar (to sell my edible landscaping course, which is opening up again in a few weeks)

I think I did okay. πŸ™‚

How are things with you?

Week 23: deep thought

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As I mentioned in my last post, most people will do just about anything to avoid thinking.

I see it all around me: people asking questions when a two second Google search would do. Collecting opinions to see what everyone else thinks about an intensely personal matter.

I don’t believe it has anything to do with wanting to fit in – it’s about the fear of deep thought, an intense fear of what you might hear inside, if you would just stop and listen.

People are so … distrustful of themselves, of their own hearts, so wanting to control and avoid whatever they are so terrified might happen, that they would rather look unintelligent, dependent, and incapable than spend just a few minutes in deep thought.

Haanel puts it this way:

Β The average person is entirely innocent of any deep thinking; he accepts the ideas of others, and repeats them, in very much the same way as a parrot; this is readily seen when we understand the method which is used to form public opinion, and this docile attitude on the part of a large majority who seem perfectly willing to let a few persons do all their thinking for them is what enables a few men in a great many countries to usurp all the avenues of power and hold the millions in subjection.

If you’re here, I’m assuming you don’t want to be like the average person – instead, you want to make a difference, to improve your life, to make things better inside yourself and around you.

So why is thinking important? Who cares if we think or not? How does thinking benefit us?

Some of you are laughing right now. Others of you are serious. It’s the second group I want to address.

Bottom line: Silent, prolonged, deep thought is how you connect with the Universal Mind (Whatever you want to call it/him/her. Don’t get twisted up about the name.)

There is nothing mystical about it. Not one thing.

Have you ever been really focused on finding a solution to a problem then … AHA! … the answer comes to you? Remember that feeling. Hold onto it. What happened is called inspiration.

From dictionary.com:

Inspiration: noun. 5. Theology. a. A divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or soul.

Okay, now, if you don’t believe in divine influence, fine. But something happened there, something which is important, something we can use to our benefit.

Notice what happened before that AHA moment? You were exercising deep concentrated thinking. You were thinking very intently on your problem. And then BAM! – the answer came, as if out of nowhere. But it wasn’t out of nowhere. In that instant, you made the connection – to whoever or whatever you want to call it – and got your answer.

And you can get that answer again, to any question you want answered. Anything. World peace, end hunger, that one thing in your life you always yearned for, it doesn’t matter how big or small it is. You can get the inspiration … the answer to any question you have. You just have to learn how.

(which is what the Master Key Experience teaches you)

Now, I’m not saying I’m enlightened or achieve this all the time. If anything, I’m a student. But I’ve gotten the answers to things which frankly amaze me, things I very much wanted the answers to.

(that’s part of the equation, by the way – you have to really truly want the answer … which means getting the blocks like fear, etc out of the way first … )

You have a couple of choices. You can keep reading along and hope you can figure it out on your own. Or you can take a step forward into understanding yourself.

I have a brief pamphlet written in the 1930’s called The Seven Day Mental Diet. If you follow the instructions in it, you’ll begin seeing a lot about yourself and others. If you’d like a copy, let me know.

 

 

Week 22a: 11 ways to avoid thinking

When I was doing my Silence, it occurred to me that most of what we do is to avoid thinking.

So for those of you who aren’t interested in learning to think, control your mind, or have a better life, here are some wonderful tips on how to do that:

  1. Never do your Sit. It takes too much time. You’ve got better things to do. Besides, you can function just fine with your kids, partner, phone, TV and computer going all at once.
  2. Have every app on your phone send you notifications! You’ll be bombarded with noise from your email, messages and apps. How fun is that?
  3. Check your email, social media, and websites every hour. Every one of them. You know, just in case.black-892457_640
  4. Turn on the TV to a 24 hour news network and keep it on all day and all night. Put a TV in every room of your house. You never know what you might be missing.
  5. Never go anywhere without at least one person with you, especially someone who talks constantly.
  6. Better yet, you talk constantly. Stream of consciousness is good for you.
  7. Eat every hour, more if you feel like it. Between preparing, eating, and cleaning up, you’ll be constantly busy. Keeps you from having to think. And make sure you eat in front of the TV, computer, or both. You’ll never have to think then.
  8. Keep busy. Busy, busy, busy! Don’t ever take any time to yourself. You’ll get lots of praise and admiration from others for being so darn busy, plus you’ll have a great excuse for when you don’t want to do something.
  9. Your vice of choice, whatever it is. Smoking, drinking, gaming, and drugs are great ways to avoid thinking.
  10. If you are forced to be alone, for example, you’re driving somewhere or in the shower, make sure there’s something to listen to. Audiobooks, radio, your favorite tunes, whatever. They’ll stop you from thinking for sure!
  11. When you do think, it’s important to think of negative things. Worry a lot. Get angry. Feel sorry for yourself. Indulge all the negativity you can. That will be sure to keep you from thinking about anything useful.

So there you have it: eleven awesome ways to keep from thinking.

If this does not sound fun, useful, peaceful, or like anything you want, then why not try another way?

Week 20: failure is impossible

This week has been interesting so far: I’ve been able to accomplish quite a bit. But I’ve had my share of what seemed like failure along the way, too, just like anyone else.

This week, though, I was reading Part 20 of The Master Keys, and Haanel said something which struck me (he’s referring to our subconscious mind):

Our failures are a result of the operation of exactly the same principle; the principle is unchangeable; its operation is exact, there is no deviation; if we think lack, limitation, discord, we shall find their fruits on every hand; if we think poverty, unhappiness or disease, the thought messengers will carry the summons as readily as any other kinds of thought and the result will be just as certain. If we fear a coming calamity, we shall be able to say with Job, “the thing I feared has come upon me”…

And I thought:

Where is the failure here?

The “calamity”, as Haanel puts it, is neither a failure of the subconscious mind nor a failure of the law of attraction, is it? They both worked, just as if you jump off of the roof, you can’t say it was a failure that you hit the ground.

When I read this, I realized that there is no such thing as failure when it comes to the law of attraction, just as there is no failure when it comes to the law of gravity. It will work every time. What actually happens depends on the choices you make.

I was going to title this week’s blog post as “staying positive in a negative world”. But it seems to me that all over the world, people are doing exactly what Haanel mentioned above: thinking lack, limitation, and discord. And then they wonder why this is manifested in their lives. It’s simply because they don’t understand the law.failure

Now it seems a bit silly if you really compare it to the law of gravity: who in their right minds would jump off of the roof and expect not to hit the ground?

But it’s just that lag time between the thought and the manifestation which makes it so vital to understand all this. If you have been negative, you have time to start changing your thoughts so as to modify or even change the result that is coming for you as inevitably as the ground.

Like the aphids, we can grow wings.

Haanel later adds:

Every time you think you start a train of causation which will create a condition in strict accordance with the quality of the thought which originated it. Thought which is in harmony with the Universal Mind will result in corresponding conditions. Thought which is destructive or discordant will produce corresponding results. You may use thought constructively or destructively, but the immutable law will not allow you to plant a thought of one kind and reap the fruit of another.

That’s the whole point of the Master Key Experience, in my view (should I dare to state an opinion here πŸ˜‰ ) – getting us off the tracks for “the thing I feared has come upon me” and onto the tracks of the things we want in our lives.

You have to stop thinking of failure in order to succeed.

I don’t know about you but two years ago that would have seemed impossible to me.

You might be thinking right now, “What do I do then? Am I doomed? I don’t want to fail! I don’t want bad stuff to happen because of my thoughts … but I feel powerless to control them.”

No! You’re not doomed! The first thing you need to realize is that you are not powerless. You can begin the way we all began in the Master Key Experience: by being an observer.

Watch your thoughts. Don’t judge them, don’t say “this thought is good/bad”. Don’t beat yourself up about them. Just watch them.

Watching your thoughts is much easier than changing them, but although it’s still pretty hard to do consistently, it’s the most important first step you can take.

I’m here to tell you that you can do it. If I can do it, anyone can. πŸ™‚

There’s this booklet called The 7 Day Mental Diet which was written back in 1935 (not a particularly pleasant time in history, if you recall) to help people with watching their thoughts, and with actually changing them! If you’d like a copy, fill out the form that pops out when you scroll down and I’ll send it to you.

Week 17: courage

Some weeks, I know what I’m going to write about for a while in advance, and some weeks I don’t. This is one of the latter sort. But that lovely subby is always at work! This morning, I woke up with this song on my mind:

Now, I was six when this song came out, and I haven’t heard it in probably decades. So why now?

Well, this song is so relevant to the Master Keys that it’s scary. Look at the lyrics:

We’d live the life we choose

We’d fight and never lose

For we were young, and sure to have our way.

Cynicism, after all, is only disappointed idealism.

What is age but a number? Why are we so sure that living the life we choose, or fighting and never losing, is only for the young?

Because our old blueprint has told us it is.

Somewhere along the line, we lost that single-mindedness, that ability to lose ourselves in a task which meant everything to us, to believe we really could succeed.

Haanel talks about this ability:

The greatness of an actor lies in the fact that he forgets himself in the portrayal of his character, that the audience is swayed by the realism of the performance.

And of course then I immediately thought of Alan Rickman.

My family and I watched the Harry Potter series over the holiday, and the one thing which struck me after we finished the series was how you never felt that this was a man portraying Severus Snape, but this was the man himself.

And we also recently watched Galaxy Quest, and one of the best parts was the transformation of Alexander Dane from a neurotic, cynical, washed-up actor to a man who inspired the Thermians (a group of aliens who had no concept of deception and abhorred violence) to rise up against their genocidal invaders.

So what does all this have to do with you?

The real question is: what is your ‘thing’? What is the life you chose, and perhaps left behind as ‘unrealistic’? What is your fight? Why did you stop? What is your gift? Why did you stop using it, developing it, sharing it?

What made you lose that conviction that you could succeed? And more importantly, what is going to get you back into your fight? To inspire those around you into action to make this place better?

The good news is that the answers are inside you. You already have everything you need to get all that back. You just need a bit of guidance to find your courage for yourself.

Which, I decided, is my word for this week, and this year. Courage. πŸ™‚

 

Week 15: failure and opportunity

Failure is not necessarily a bad thing. In it lie the seeds of opportunity, if you’re willing to look for it.

Let me explain. For the first time since starting this course in September 2014, I have failed to complete a weekly service.

(those of you taking the course know how ‘gasp’ worthy that is)

My weekly was to make a full-length Victorian dress for the event I’m going to next weekend. Not just one dress, but a reversible dress, with different colors and styles on each side. And my machine was broken, so I was going to do it by hand. While in the middle of a holiday week, while watching a marathon of Harry Potter movies with my daughter and her boyfriend coming over every day.

Okay, so I put myself in a situation where I was probably going to fail. This is straight out of my old blueprint, and looking back, it seems silly. At the time, it didn’t seem that way. But in the back of my head, I thought, “can I really do this?” so even then I knew.

Things were going pretty well, actually. The skirt was sewn, the bodice and sleeves were cut out, and fit great. But then a sleeve got put in inside out, and the neckline was wrong, and on and on and on. Finally, realizing I couldn’t do the buttonholes in time, I went to a local sewing shop on Sunday and bought me a new machine.

(They were technically closed, but they were renovating and when I said I needed a machine today and if they were closed did they know anyone who sold them, they said come on in. Good business, there.)

But the neck was giving me fits and it was 11:30 pm and I normally go to bed at 10 and I hadn’t gotten to the buttonholes yet and the skirt was still to be put on and that damn sleeve still wasn’t right and I had to admit I had failed.


Haanel tells a story about failure, right at the start of part 15, and when I read it, I found it inspirational.

Here’s how it goes: An experiment was done at the Rockefeller Institute by a Dr. Jacques Loch (MD/PhD) where potted roses infested with aphids (which have no wings) were put into a room near a closed window and allowed to dry out.

Now, these aphids were in trouble. They thought they had chosen a great place to live, but it had turned disastrous. They had no food, no water, and things looked pretty dim. They had failed spectacularly. What could they do? They were just bugs, crawling around on a dying rose bush. It seemed as if they were doomed.

So what did they do? Did they just lay down and die? No.

The only method by which they could save themselves from starvation was to grow temporary wings and fly, which they did.

(emphasis mine)

They took a failure and turned it into an amazing opportunity for freedom. They found resources and abilities within themselves they never had before.

When I first read this, I thought: if an aphid can do this, so can I. I am more than an aphid! So I began a little experiment of my own.

(no, I’m not trying to grow wings)

(according to Wikipedia, it’s actually their children who are born – very quickly, I’d presume – with wings)

(I’ll tell you about my experiment later. This post is getting too long as it is, and I have a lot more to say.)


So how does failure turn into opportunity? If you use it to learn something.

It didn’t hit me until yesterday that I had failed, and what that meant. I felt as if I let myself down, and I did cry a bit about that. But then I realized that I had been half-assing it for a while now. Reading Og once a day instead of three times. Not listening to my recording at all – it needs to be re-recorded and I’ve been putting it off. ‘Sort of’ finishing weekly tasks ‘well enough’. Not keeping my promises to my customers. No wonder subby figured I was going back to the old blueprint. I was.

Before I began this class, I had failed in every single area of my life. Every one.

(don’t even bother telling me ‘no, look at all the good stuff you did,’ because I have them on stacks of cards and almost every one is bittersweet, a record of great starts, even great accomplishments, ending in massive failure – and I guarantee you do not know the details)

So why in the world would I want to go back to that?

They say when you’re stressed, you seek out the familiar, and I guess that’s what I was doing.


A few months ago, someone who has known me since 1980 told me I was neutral evil.

(we were sort of having an argument at the time)

For those of you who have never played Dungeons and Dragons (D&D), here’s a fair description of the concept of alignment, and more specifically about the neutral evil alignment, although this other person and I go with the altruistic/selfish view of good/evil rather than the newer version, which is too simplistic to translate to reality.

(If you need more examples, here’s a whole slew of alignment charts applied to fictional characters. Some charts are more accurate than others.)

Now, at first him saying I was neutral evil hurt my feelings. I always thought of myself as neutral good, or at least that’s what I always wanted to be.

But then I thought about it a while, looked at my life, at who I really am, and decided that perhaps this is why the course has been so difficult for me: I am trying to change my alignment.

In D&D, changing alignment is a serious matter for a player-character: you change not only how you are as a person, you change everything, down to your gods. Changing alignment costs you, in a big way.

This explains some things. It’s making me re-evaluate my DMP, and why I do what I do, why I want what I want. This … failure, if you will (if not in me as a person but certainly in my relationships), is becoming an opportunity, because it opened my eyes to what I was pretending not to know.

I need to stop trying to change my life and change it.

(Sort of like Morpheus and Neo when they’re fighting.)

I’m scheduling this post. When it appears, I’ll be driving to New Orleans on Thursday, to go to Wizard World Comic Con and sell my book, and to go to a business conference. My dress will be done. How do I know? Because I have thought the matter through and starting at noon, for ten hours today (Tuesday) I will work on that dress. If it’s not done, then I will start at noon and work on it for ten hours Wednesday, or until it’s done.

I will make it happen.

(okay, now I really am getting silly here, channeling Palpatine, but it’s going to happen, and my week will be awesome)

So if you have failed, are failing, no matter how badly, it doesn’t matter. You can turn that failure into a chance to become someone that you weren’t before.

Look for the opportunity.

Find the resources and abilities in yourself that you didn’t know you had.

Make it happen.

See you next week. πŸ™‚

Week 13: Effects and causes

This week, Haanel talks more about causes and effects: more specifically, that each of the effects we see around us, from natural to man-made, have a particular cause. Once we find the cause, we can create the effect for ourselves whenever we want.

For example: people have observed birds flying, leaves floating, and so on, since the beginning of humanity, and for thousands of years people spent their lives trying to create the effect without understanding the cause. As far as I can tell, even the Wright brothers more or less stumbled upon the effect, and so we have airplanes. But once we learned the cause (aerodynamics) we could create the effect of flying whenever we wanted to!

I think it’s the same way with the other effects in our lives. We see how our lives are, and we spend our lives trying to create situations which we think are good, without really understanding the cause of either why we are here now or why someone who has what we want got that.

(many times, we don’t really even know what we want in the first place, but that’s another matter)

We may stumble upon it, and many often do. When we understand the cause, though, we’ll be able to create that effect whenever we like.

During the first part of the class (and some people are still struggling with the question) we asked: what do you want? That is the effect.

But what is the cause? That is what we need to figure out.

(This reminds me a bit of our battleship exercise.)

Haanel talks about belief, about the Universal Mind, about how our thoughts become the cause which creates literal effects in our existence. Not supernatural. Not mystical. Real effects from a real cause: your thoughts.

(If the thoughts you create inside your own head are not real, then what is?)

Anyone who’s tried to guide their thoughts (aka the 7 day mental diet) has learned how difficult it is at first. Just like anyone else who’s trying to create an effect, it takes some doing. Things (whether a positive mental attitude or a skyscraper) do not just jump into existence because you wish they would.

So now the task is to examine the effects we want then go back to see what the cause might be for this. Haanel gives us a clue:

The athlete may read books and lessons on physical training all his life, but unless he begins to give out strength by actual work he will never receive any strength; he will eventually get exactly what he gives; but he will have to give it first. It is exactly the same with us; we will get exactly what we give, but we shall have to give it first. It will then return to us many fold, and the giving is simply a mental process, because thoughts are causes and conditions are effects; therefore in giving thoughts of courage, inspiration, health or help of any kind we are setting causes in motion which will bring about their effect.

Or as Mark J likes to say: give more, get more.

This is more like a clue-bat: an athlete who just sat around reading books about training but never did any would be ridiculed!

But we say we want wealth yet are fearful, greedy, and stingy; say we want happiness but are mean to others, or think of unhappy things all day; say we want health but do and think things we know are unhealthy. And so we get what we think about.

You see, the law of attraction is no different from any other law. It works 100% of the time. You can’t get away from it any more than you can get away from the law of gravity. You reap what you sow.

Right now is a good time of year to think about these things, because while you may be sure of the effect you want, if you don’t understand the cause then you probably won’t get that effect.

Week 12: the connection

I read a short story a few weeks ago about a man who died and walked with God for a while, someone who looked basically like anyone else, and they talked. The main idea of the story was that this man who had just died was the only person in the universe, here to live every single life possible to live.

(God told him that his next stop was going to be to live as a woman in 5th century China.)

Once this person lived all their lives and learned all the things they needed to learn, they would be given their own universe, their own person, and get to talk to the person they were assigned to when they had completed each of their lives.


This week, Haanel reminds us of our connection to the Universal Mind, and gives a good suggestion as to how to recognize it: silence, what in the class we call the Sit.

I was out walking today (in silence), and considering the idea of us all being connected, how we have the same subby as everyone else does. This isn’t a new idea to me. But it hit me today: if I have the same subby as everyone else does, then there is only one subby.

As in the story, we are just one person.

When I see you, I see the part of me that is you: our subby. Namaste is how the Hindus put it, recognizing that part and honoring it.

My thought expanded on this: when I see an aspect of someone, I am seeing that aspect of me in them.

I see someone who is talented and wise, and I see the part of me which is this way.

I see someone who is prejudiced, and I acknowledge the times I have judged others by the way they looked without knowing anything about them.

I see a happy dog, or a smiling baby, and I see the joyful simple heart within me which delights in life itself.

I see a fearful xenophobic person and I see the fear which resists letting others in who might hurt me.

I see a generous person and I acknowledge the generosity within myself.

I see an angry, hateful person and I recall the times I have lashed out at others.

In a way, this thought turns having opinions on its head, because when I form an opinion about others it’s really an opinion about me.

Mark J said a similar thing last year sometime, but at the time I didn’t really get it: if we didn’t have an aspect of ourselves in us, we wouldn’t be able to see it in others. Sort of like the ‘vibratory brain cell’ Haanel talks about which we need to be able to grasp a completely new idea.

Combine this with the law of attraction and I have new insight about why letting go of judgment, or negative opinion, is so important: my thoughts attract what I think about to me and reinforce it. It’s all about focus, and what do I want.

There is only one subby, just as there is only one Mind. We can change who we are, and by extension, who everyone else in the world is, if we only make the connection.

 

Week 11: I hear that train a-comin’

The question I had to face this week was: if I’ve been doing all this manifesting stuff right for the past year or so, why am I still not getting everything I want? Haanel has the answer:

“… while every effect is the result of a cause, the effect in turn becomes a cause, which create other effects, which in turn create still other causes; so that when you put the law of attraction into operation you must remember that you are starting a train of causation for good or otherwise which may have endless possibilities.”

In other words, the things you are getting right now are things which you (or if you’re a baby, dog, or other creature without agency, someone else) started manifesting a LONG time ago, just as a train doesn’t just appear on the tracks but has to be created and moved to where you are, and you’re not getting a train going anywhere from a dead stop in a hurry. It usually takes at least a little time. And conversely, the things you’re manifesting now will also take some time to get going depending on what they are and whether you may have the brakes on. πŸ™‚


I have had a problem with being addicted to scarcity. I grew up rich as a child then my parents lost everything and it took a long time for them to get back to a good place financially, and then my father died and we were poor again. Then it took a really long time to get my career going (making more than I could ever imagine), and then I had a nervous breakdown.

I feel as if my old blueprint is set up to say ‘If you become wealthy it only brings you pain, loss, stress, and illness.’

I’ve talked about this before, and yet this week here I was again with that old demon. I wanted to manifest success in my business and it has seemed as if all I get is resistance at every turn.563121_630170500357775_1390384717_n

Then this popped up in my Facebook feed. And it hit me like … like someone slapped me in the face.

I have marked myself down.

Even now, I feel emotional at writing it.

I do feel as if I’m not being treated with love and respect.

But I really have a dilemma, because this business is everything I have ever wanted. It’s smack in the middle of my DMP. It – theoretically – meets both my PPNs. It’s been a passion of mine for decades. It’s my ticket to the dream of my life. It’s one of the things I want to be remembered for.

Do I just walk away? Or do I sidestep the rock there on the beach and keep going?

Anyway, I don’t have to decide any major business things today. But what I did do is to sign up for a course about upping your game in your business, which just so happened to be in the same place and a few days after a major venue to sell my book at which I’ve been looking at going to for months.

So I’m getting the feeling that the universe is nudging me along. Maybe it’s not the business. Maybe it’s the people I put on the damn train.

I already made the decision to set up an environment where the ones who won’t behave will kick themselves out, and if they don’t, I’m fully prepared to kick them out of the train myself.

But I feel as if I need to change me as well. I need to get off that clearance rack, the kiddie track, stop discounting, stop pricing my products to feed into the scarcity mindset that the whole rest of the world has. That’s the opposite of why I started the business in the first place.

I keep thinking of this quote from Og Mandino, which I’ll just leave here:

I was not delivered into this world in defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. I am not a sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepherd. I am a lioness and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep. I hear not those who weep and complain, for their disease is contagious. Let them join the sheep. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny.

 

 

Week 10: digging deeper

I’ve been having a hard time this week for some reason. Things have been going very well, yet I haven’t been feeling it.

Earlier this week, I thought a lot about last week’s post, and what my ‘seed’ really was. Was it love? Or were there other things going on in there?

In any case, I began thinking about seeds and how our thoughts are like roots and how I needed to dig deeper if I wanted to be able to bear the fruit I want.

Haanel talks about roots, and how just like roots reach into the dead soil and fill it with life, the Universal Mind (or whatever name floats your boat) reaches into our subby and fills us with life. If you entertain destructive thoughts (aka thinking of what you don’t want), you cut yourself off from that life, and just like a plant cut off at the roots, eventually you die.

So why do people get so freaked out when asked to decide what they do want?

(I’m sort of asking myself this here as well)

This is what it reminds me of:

It’s like they would rather choose death than cake!

Do we believe we don’t deserve cake? Or more to the point, do we believe we deserve death instead?

Or have we been so brainwashed about how the world works that we don’t believe it when we’re told the truth?

What do you think?